The Move (and the Pause)
We’re in Tres Lagos now. Renting, not building.
The home building decision is on pause. Not canceled — just… not happening right now. Turns out there’s a difference between “we should do this” and “this is the right move right now,” and I’m finally learning to tell them apart.
Tres Lagos is good. The kids are adjusting. Life moves forward even when the big plans shift.
Mountains and Momentum
Last month, we had an architecture onsite. My boss flew the team out for a ski trip.
Most of us did lessons — not everyone was ready to hit the slopes. A few people actually skied. But it wasn’t really about the skiing. It was productive in the ways that matter: time with the team, good technical conversations, building trust away from keyboards and standups.
I came back energized in a way I haven’t felt in months. Not just about the work — though yeah, the technical discussions were great — but about the team. Looking forward to the rest of 2026 with this architecture group. We’re building something that matters with people who give a shit.
That matters more than I usually admit.
Anxiety as an Idol
Church hit different today.
The lesson was about anxiety. Not the “just pray more” kind of sermon — the real kind. The “you’re treating your worry like a god and you don’t even realize it” kind.
Here’s what stuck: treating anxiety as an idol means giving it power it doesn’t deserve.
When I obsess over what might go wrong, I’m not being responsible or prepared. I’m bowing down to fear and calling it wisdom. I’m letting anxiety make decisions that should be mine to make.
The home building pause? Part of that is learning to let go of the need to have everything figured out. The move to Tres Lagos? That’s us making a decision instead of letting anxiety make it for us.
I’m working on it. Some days are better than others.
Fillin: Back to the Drawing Board
Speaking of setbacks: Fillin got rejected.
Made some changes I thought were improvements. App Store reviewers disagreed. Now it’s back in “needs work” status instead of “pending review.”
Old me would spiral. Obsess over what I did wrong. Replay the decision to make those changes. Burn hours trying to fix it right now.
New me (or trying-to-be-new me) is taking a breath. The app isn’t dead. The review isn’t personal. It’s just… a thing that needs fixing. I’ll get to it.
Not today. But soon.
The Thread
Here’s what I’m realizing: all of this is connected.
The home pause. The team trip. The church lesson. The app setback.
They’re all asking the same question: Can you handle things not going according to plan?
Turns out, I’m learning to say yes.
Not perfectly. Not without the occasional 3am worry spiral. But more than before.
The slopes were good. The team is solid. The anxiety is… less in charge than it used to be. And Fillin will get fixed when it gets fixed.
For now? I’m okay with where things are.
What’s next:
- Fix Fillin (when I’m ready)
- Keep shipping at work
- Keep practicing “less anxious Randy”
- Enjoy Tres Lagos while we’re here
See you next month. 🏔️